low fat, no salt, how about just healthy??

before i started this school year i had decided that i would not only devote myself to doing well in regards to my class work, but also to taking really good care of myself.  as with all goals i had a romanticized view of how things would be.  i would work out three times a week in the gym downstairs, cook lots of healthy meals, and just generally be an overachiever.  none of that ended up happening, aside from school work, and when fall quarter ended i felt quite disappointed in myself.  with it being a difficult time for me in general, i haven't worried too much about it.  i did that best i could, but now i feel like i should be able to achieve my goals...with some revisions.

a few weeks ago i managed to run two separate miles.  how i got through a mile run without having exercised...well, ever...is beyond me, but doing it twice really boosted my confidence.  i evn started cooking again! a few nights ago was steak with broccoli and i have a few other recipes stashed for when i have the time in the evenings to cook.  i felt so good making it and even better knowing that what i feed myself is good for me.  i wilted last year with the 'food' offered at campus dining.  there were many days when i would be sick after eating food that was ill prepared, extremely greasy and laden with preservatives, or not even cooked enough.  my body is quite pleased with the changed and is rewarding me with the energy to go run those miles!  i hope to keep up these changes and make them a lifelong habit!

as many of you may know i'm quite addicted to knitting. i've written about it in previous posts as well, and i finally have some of my work to show off! mostly i've just been practicing for a while, so i was pleased when my most recent project came out just like i planned it. i give you, a coffee cuff...

it's meant to make mugs look really pretty, but i added it to the travel mug my parents bought me for christmas, makes the steel look much more girly! i have a few other projects i'm working on that should turn out just as well, and i'm hopeful i can share them with you all soon. let me know what you think!!

i'm not entirely sure what i should write about. i haven't updated in a long time, not because i was having writers block or anything, mostly because this past fall as been completely insane for me. there were a lot of things that i have put off for a very long time that i needed to work through and deal with. i almost didn't make it out with my sanity, but thanks to the amazing support of my family and best friend i'm back on my feet and starting to learn how to walk again.

i've learned so much about myself through all of this (i'm not going to come out and share what it was; email, text, or anything if you'd like to know). the biggest lesson was that i have to trust that things will be ok. i've always struggled with that, but i really had to take the leap of faith and just let myself be while my mind healed and reset the habits that it had formed. i hope to keep that lesson in the back of my mind so that i won't ever forget to be calm and let things flow as they may, because you can only control what you can control. all else is just water under the bridge.

hopefully i'll start blogging again, so keep checking for updates!